PAUSE

MARCH 25, 2026

CAN I HAVE A PAUSE IN THIS MOMENT 

CAN I HAVE SOME QUIET, SOME SILENCE 

CAN I HAVE A HALT WITH THESE THOUGHTS 

A DELAY FROM CONSTANT EMOTIONS

I DON’T WANNA THINK, I DON’T WANNA WONDER, WANDER

IT’S ALL THIS ANXIETY, MAKING ME ANXIOUS

IT'S MOMENTS LIKE THAT 

I LOSE CONTROL, AND I DON’T KNOW HOW TO DEAL WITH MYSELF

I’M HOPING THAT THIS IS LIKE NO OTHER

TIME THAT I’VE SAID, I’VE QUIT

BUT I ALWAYS GO BACK TO IT AGAIN

AND IT TEARS ME APART EVERY SINGLE TIME

I WANNA MEAN IT THIS TIME

FINALLY, SEE SOME CHANGE IN ME

BECAUSE IT HURTS

NOT BEING ABLE TO CONTROL MY IMPULSIVE SIDE

KEEP QUIET, THE DEMONS INSIDE ME

I CAN’T SLEEP AT NIGHT. THEY ALL KEEP ME AWAKE.

JUST THE MEMORIES HAUNT ME

MY EYES GO BLURRY FROM ALL THE VISIONS

I CAN’T STOP HEARING THE SCREAMS INSIDE MY HEAD

HE SAID IT WOULD BE GOOD FOR ME

BUT NOW I KNOW I WAS FINE BEFORE

I LISTENED AND TREATED HIM LIKE A NEIGHBOR

HE CAME HUNGRY, AND I FED HIM

HE CAME THIRSTY, AND I GAVE HIM SOMETHING TO DRINK

HE CAME NAKED, AND I GAVE HIM SOMETHING TO WEAR

I WAS FULL, BUT HE DRAINED ME

HE WAS LEADING, BUT HE GOT LOST

AND I WITH HIM, BUT HE SAID HE COULD FIX THAT TOO

NOW I’VE GOT SOME OF HIS FRIENDS HERE TO SAVE ME TOO

HOW MUCH DO THEY KNOW, CAUSE IT’S ALWAYS DARK

SHOULD HAVE LISTENED TO MY MAMA 

SHOULD HAVE FOLLOWED THE FOOTSTEPS OF MY DADDY

BUT I STRAYED TOO FAR FROM THE PATH THEY MADE CLEAR

AND NOW I'M GONE, WANDERED WAY TOO FAR FOR ME TO WALK BACK ALONE

THE FURTHER I GO, THE VOICES GET LOUDER

GIVING ME THOUGHTS OF ENDING IT ALL

SAYING IT’S THE RIGHT THING TO DO

BUT I KNOW IF I GO THROUGH WITH IT

I LOSE, HE WINS, AND THAT’S ALL HE REALLY WANTS

CAN I HAVE A PAUSE IN THIS MOMENT 

CAN I HAVE SOME QUIET, SOME SILENCE 

CAN I HAVE A HALT WITH THESE THOUGHTS 

A DELAY FROM CONSTANT EMOTIONS

I DON’T WANNA THINK, I DON’T WANNA WONDER, WANDER

IT’S ALL THIS ANXIETY, MAKING ME ANXIOUS

IT'S MOMENTS LIKE THAT 

I LOSE CONTROL, AND I DON’T KNOW HOW TO DEAL WITH MYSELF

CAN I HAVE A PAUSE IN THIS MOMENT 

CAN I HAVE SOME QUIET, SOME SILENCE 

CAN I HAVE A HALT WITH THESE THOUGHTS 

A DELAY FROM CONSTANT EMOTIONS

I DON’T WANNA THINK, I DON’T WANNA WONDER, WANDER

IT’S ALL THIS ANXIETY, MAKING ME ANXIOUS

IT'S MOMENTS LIKE THAT 

I LOSE CONTROL, AND I DON’T KNOW HOW TO DEAL WITH MYSELF